Hi. Welcome to my blog. This is something that I never thought that I would do. At least on this topic. My life forever changed on April 14, 2018. I almost didn’t survive, but I did. And it sent me on the toughest journey I have ever faced. That was the day that I suffered…
Episode 21
I have been missing from my blog lately. To be honest, I’ve been missing from my life. Somewhere between there and here I slipped through the cracks into a depression that has left me roiled in a quagmire of ugliness and brutality that’s difficult to escape. I haven’t written because I didn’t feel like I…
Episode 20
Recently I saw a post on social media that said something like “I apologize if I was ever the toxic person in your life, but I’m working on becoming a better version of myself” and it just hit me hard. Looking back at my life, I realize I was that toxic person. I wasn’t hurting…
Episode 19
Trauma never really goes away, you just learn to live with it. Some days it feels like I’m living in a tense hostage situation and other days I feel like it’s simply a roommate I navigate life with, dancing through a too small space to avoid bumping into each other. My four year anniversary of…
Episode 18
The changing seasons has always been one of my favorite things. As I’ve moved around the country for my career, it was one of the things I frequently complained about missing since we were always in the south. Autumn is my favorite and as much as I love the south, it just couldn’t compete with…
Episode 17
“Is this a normal size bed” I whispered timidly. “Yes.” My husband just stared at me…not sure what to expect next. “Why?” “It feels like I’m too big for it. Like it belongs in a dollhouse.” “No. I promise, everything is perfectly normal sized”. I had only woken from my coma a few days prior…
Episode 16
It’s been a long time since I’ve paced in the shadows of the moonlight. I’ve been having flashbacks and panic attacks for hours now. It all seems so sudden. I was perfectly fine earlier. The only thing that helps when I get like this is to pace and randomly sit wherever I am for brief…
Episode 15
April 14 has new meaning to me now. Each year, as it approaches, I am reminded of how my life has been forever changed and how I am beyond blessed. Since my aneurysm ruptured on April 14, 2018, my life has changed in ways that I could never have imagined. Each year since has brought…
Episode 14
I have been absent lately. I haven’t published for awhile and several folks have reached out to me wondering where I have been. Honestly, the last few months have been rough for several reasons, but one thing I have learned is that sometimes you just need to step away and take care of yourself. For…
Episode 13
My migraines started in my early teen years. With me, they definitely seemed to be hereditary. My dad had them, as did his mother, his brother, and my cousins. I remember when I was little my dad would literally stand and bang his head on the wall when his got so bad. I never understood…
Episode 12
“I complained I had no shoes until I met the man who had no feet.” My dad used to tell me that when I was young if I was having a pity party about something. It was my constant reminder that there is always someone who is worse off than you. That has stuck with…